You don't have to carry this alone, and you deserve support from a real person — today.
A friend, family member, or anyone who feels safe. You don't need the right words — "I'm having a hard time" is enough.
GPs help with this every day. It's a normal thing to bring to them.
116 123 — free to call, day and night, every day of the year. You can also email jo@samaritans.org.
findahelpline.com lists free, confidential crisis lines for almost every country.
Call your local emergency services now — 999 in the UK, 112 across the EU, 911 in North America.
A note on what My Lighthouse is: a journal, with a thoughtful companion. It is not therapy, not medical care, and not a crisis service — and it will always tell you so rather than pretend otherwise. The people above are the real thing.